I'm sick of my life.I hate it!Hate it!Hate it!

I failed in everything I do ,getting berated for even just a wee bit of mistakes,disappointed those whom I loved.

First off,my academics.I used to be in the top 40.I wasn't the best,but I was at least as good as those above me.I didn't get the subject combination I want.I keep on failing at my Mathematics:of which I am particularly weak in.And lastly I dropped till the 80th position.

So far the best thing about this year is my NDP rehearsals,and ironically they are one of my downfall sources.It burns my whole Saturday,where I used 2 spent on resting,doing my tuition homework or occasionally going out,alas I haven't done it 4 5 months now.I got two more rehearsals,but I just wished 2 weeks will fly in the blink of an eye.

I'm getting obsessed with SEX.I can't take it anymore.I want 2 grab just some slut.Doggy her ,rip her bra,spank her ass and lick her nipples and pussy.I keep on imagining that on Jia Hui and Crystal ,but hey I just can't do it.

And,I got an older sis who keeps on nagging at me. She's always been an attention lover and when somebody just behave ignorantly,yup u got tongue-lashed

Entry no.2 28/02/2010 Title:Independence

I believe this topic will be most rewarding for those who are finally spanning their wings and fly away from their nest or will be doing it someday in the near future.Honestly ,I don't have any rights to say that I'm already living independently;however I think I have the rough idea and I believe I should share this.First off,the reason on why I can consider myself as living independently.You see,I used to stay with my guardian/aunt and also a cousin of mine.It was pretty much an easy lifestyle,coming back home,showering,followed by a few hours of television or nap before going for my tuition,though sometimes my activities are disrupted by school activities ;however I can always balance them.However starting from the last 2 months of 2009 everything starts to change.Firstly,with regards to my cousin's secondary school graduation,my aunt and her husband decided to relocated the entire family to their home in South Korea.I can't say that I blame them,considering that my uncle;the patriarch figure of the family has been living away from his family for nearly his entire life,in his old age.I believe it is reasonable if he wants to spend more time with his family.In addition,my cousin was promised a better chance in entering a top college/

I can't blame them,in fact I'm thrilled for them.Though that is where my hectic days started.I believe most of you have seen those dramas whereby a man gave up on his dream,or athletic scholarship to be with his family instead.Well,with the way I've been living currently I'm sorry to tell you all this,however those stuffs are not fictional.And no,I'm not married.However nowadays I have to spend my time in two places most of the time.Firstly its my kitchen.I have to wash my own clothes.Its not much ,honestly;though its troublesome.I usually performed my laundry duty on Wednesday after my Chinese tuition.Sometimes,I even need to change this to some other days as it might clashed with a school activity,hence my laundry is usually done from seven to eight p.m.

The evening chores is not so bad,its the morning one that I really dread.In the past,I usually wake at around five a.m.Now I ought to wake up at around four in the morning.So that I have more time to prepare my meals and uniform.If that's not busy enough,I didn't mention that I have to balance all those chores with my studies and leisure activities.On the positive not,I had more time on my hand for relaxation now,though that's just it.My mind is losing its edge.I used to have four tuition s.All four the respective important components(English,Mathematics,Science and Chinese).Nowadays,I can only practice on the weaker ones of the four ,while the other two of my stronger subjects are being ignored.So imagine,if you are already entering the working class.All those chores I mentioned above,plus your family and overtime.Hence I urged you to cherish what you have gotten now;especially the support given by your parents,as believe me once you entered the independent lifestyle.Its not about fun and games anymore.

N.B:Thankfully now I manage to balance it.I will emphasize more on Chinese language now by having my tuition moved to Saturday,while the previous Wednesday slot will be filled by my school's Chinese teacher.Mathematics will remain in its previous Tuesday slot.For English,now this is the interesting one.As this is the purpose of this blog.Please leave me some comments and remarks,I'm begging you to do so in fact;BUT PLEASE NO EXPLETIVES.

Entry no.1 20/02/2010 type:reflection:

Greetings to all,for my first entry.I would like to reflect on a certain topic from a comprehension practice.And that is,in regards to the image of an ideal man.In the past,people will regard those who possessed great strength and courage such that of Scottish warriors as seen in the movie 'Braveheart'.However as time passed on,there are others which tries to take that spot.Three words female use to describe their ideal male nowadays is tall ,dark and handsome.

Though in my oppinion this isn't necessarily to be true.Being a Buddhist and raised in a closely knitted family.I believe the image of an ideal male is a man who loves his family whole-heartedly and will do whatever within his means to keep them out of harm's way and misery;just like my father who has worked hard all his life to take care of his siblings ,spouse(my mother) and children.Maybe male with bulging biceps and impressive built like that of He-Man from the Masters of The Universe series or Man who can literally shatter a bone easily like that of Kenshiro,the main character of the Fist of The North Star series are impressive.However;they are not real.Sure maybe body-building can give you impressive figure,but that's just it.Its just a form of exercise,not what makes a man out of you.


From what I've seen so far,the usual image that male portrayed are those whom you usually see in ghetto movies ,dying their hair ,spiking it up,putting piercing all over their faces and etc.And honestly,if I would have to pick,I would prefer being a coward who suddenly standup to challenge the bullies.In all sincerity,I've faced one of those types of guys in a brawl,and I should say they barely put up a challenge individually.Hence I would come with the conclusion that this is nowhere to that of the the image which I highly revered.However,all these are just my point of view .They have no facts or figures to back them up.Every child of mother Earth has their own voices;hence they should follow their own believes.Not trust that of mine only.

With that,I will end my first entry.Feel free to comment via E-mail.I will be more than happy to answer them

The condition of the world nowadays

With the issue of both global arming and H1N1 affecting the world in a global scale ,I decide to write these as a way for me to relief my own personal feelings,nowadays people are just putting on campaign,promotion and encouraging people to practice all sorts of things that they say help in prevention of global warming.Regardless of that ,I think this is nothing but a futile effort.

I believe action speak louder than words,however the action must be the appropriate ones.To me the the posters and all of the banners will actually work however,men are living things who cares only for their own well-beings.As my friend noted,there ought to be a lustful side to you and without a shadow of a doubt,I agree with that.

I believe further,more stricter action need to be taken,in effort to battle global warming.We can no longer depend on initiative of mankind anymore.As I mentioned earlier,men only care for their own greed.Once they are contented ,who cares about the rest.Government should put more penalty and restrictions to usage to harmful substances,infact prevention of work is to me the best solution is this desperate situation.

Despite it sounding like an insane suggestion,however if I may suggest.Perhaps authoritarianism and tyrannical reign once practised by likes of Rudolph Hitler and Napoleon Bonaparte over these resources is the ultimate solution,as lesser harmful sources,lesser pollution

Personal oppinion 2

What's the worth ,I will just get into a bigger trouble and eventually I just slipped it off.And now I write 2 u my reflection.Hoping that somebody 2 check whether what I have written and what I have done is right.Or just a pain rubbish and with that I will end here and leave it a ll 2 u readers

Yours sincerely ,
HCF

Personal oppinion

I just don get with teens today .If the story that what my folks told me was true ,of how teenagers of the past r always studying n working hard n even till they are all grown up .Their discipline remains wif them till they grow old .If this is true,I truly am honored to have been disciples of this breed of diligent people who continues 2 learn till they grow old and bold but never try 2 fold their book

But it truly wonders me ,y r teens today r well becoming much more of what is consider a rotten bunch .I said this with a deep thought ,believe if u want or nor but actually I m still just a teenager myself.Yesterday when I was doing an extracurricular activity.I told a fellow student student a rule that we are not allowed 2 drink from water cooler.And he just acted like as if I was just a chatterbox.So I pulled him,and shoved him onto the floor,he acted as if he is a big time gangster who want 2 fight me.I might be a short guy,but in my own right I m pretty tough and if I never control my temper yesterday.That pretty boy will have bruises on his face right now n I'll just be laughing right now at his misery .Though I didn't do so as to me this is just as pathetic as they are .From personal observation though,I guess teens today can only care more about fun or thinking that they are already tough n don need anyone telling them what not 2 do.Rather than paying their tribute and respect 2 their parents whom they owed a lot more in life than what their parents could have own them,they only care about themselves.I myself do enjoy fun,really I do .However I always think that fun or rather being tough is not the only thing in life.There's time and place for everything n i just don get it y most teens today always care 4 thinks that they like.Can't they ever just care about their parents ,can't they just think about their future or just initiative on consequences if anything that provides them as a source for fun.Honestly ,the boy that I mentioned earlier is nothing more than a skinny guy who thinks he is that tough n all that .He never think of consequences ,he thinks that this is just his own world n he can do anything he wants .I really wanted 2 pummel him,so badly till he cried 4 mercy ,till he is humiliated .Though when I was about 2 do so ,I just think .

Short stories chapter 14

By the next day ,we were on the plane .Heading down to the location of the excavation,the reason for this .Is that there's a possibility that a mine hosting a very rare element,that does not pollute and simultaneously bio-degradable.It is extremely useful for our industrial purposes and our original intention for gaining that spot from our overseas partner was solely just to obtain this mine,located there .Though to me ,this is not the current matter .What I am trying to focus on now is just ,how I am going to divert her attention .

And initially ,I though heaven was on my side .As the seating arrangement was beside me ,while Alan is at another seat .I introduced myself to her ,she just briefly said her name was Elizabeth and just said nice to meet you before continue looking at her laptop again . I engaged in a conversation with her however she only give brie replies.Then she apologized and said that she easily get air -sick and talking definitely does not help .However as we experienced turbulence.She vomited out and I was definitely in disgust.She told me that she wouldn't mind if I moved which I obliged to.I switched chair with Alan.And though I thought this was not going to ruin anything ,but guess this was in fact a critical decision.As he managed to get her not just talk after just some brief minutes ,but even laugh.